I have resisted posting on this blog for many reasons. The thought that rings true to me right now for why I chose not to post is that I did not feel in alignment in my life and so anything I would express during that time wouldn’t feel quite right. In hindsight, there are multiple posts on this blog that I posted while out of alignment and no longer resonate with, yet I must be compassionate to my past self and allow them to be true for me in the moment I wrote them. I also can’t deny that I’ve, frankly, just been lazy (Whoops!). Hey, it happens to the best of us.
Since I last posted, I moved back to California from Boulder, Colorado to heal from this past year, embraced a new chapter of my life and sense of self, and basically allowed myself to hibernate. I have an aunt who always said when I was young that I was a brown bear and recently I’ve been feeling that brown bear hibernation state mentally, physically, and spiritually.
Before I divulge more life updates in further posts, I want to share my intentions for 2018. For this next year, my intentions came to me in the form of questions that I can always come back to:
In this moment…
- How can I be more kind?
- How can I connect more deeply with my community?
- Where can I experience joy?
Some truths that I have arrived at through this time of hibernation is that there is love to be received in many capacities when I need it – and any other time as well. I realized that alignment comes from within context and that this life gives pleasures that no life before could hold (So might as well enjoy them!). And lastly, if I bring light with me into every aspect of my life, I also bring with me love and connection. I find that what I desire most after this year is to be kind, to connect with those in my community, and experience joy wherever it shows up.
“True belonging is the spiritual practice of believing in and belonging to yourself so deeply that you can share your most authentic self with the world and find sacredness with being apart of something and standing alone in the wilderness. True belonging doesn’t require you to change who you are, it requires you to be who you are.” -Brene Brown, Braving The Wildness