I feel heavy. That’s one of the only ways I can describe how I feel after this election, heavy. A feeling that has periodically shown itself in uncontrollable weeping tears that have stained whatever shirt I’ve been wearing these past few days. A feeling of fear, for myself as a woman and for the people of color and queer individuals in my life. A feeling of deep sadness for the individuals in this country who are so filled with hate and resentment that they believe the responsibility of our collective destruction of this country should be put on the shoulders of certain demographics, who don’t deserve any of this blame. A feeling of disappointment for the individuals who looked past the bad, the very bad, just because they wanted a Republican in the presidency (and btw Trump isn’t even a Republican).
Of course I’m fucking biased. I wanted Hillary Clinton to fucking win. I didn’t want Trump to win. I didn’t want someone who openly invalidates the lives and experiences of so many people I love. I didn’t give a flying-fuck about whether the president was a republican or democrat. I just didn’t want to feel this feeling that I’m feeling right now, but here I am fucking feeling it.
But I am also optimistic. Sometimes a sickness must erupt in our bodies and come to the surface for us to realize that, even though this was something we could’ve prevented, there is something we need to fix, there is a need that should be filled, and there conversation to be had as to where the root of the sickness lies. There is a lot of fear, sadness, and hate in the American people and it needed to come to the surface for us to realize the depth of the problem. We could’ve had a woman for our president, but that could’ve just put a bandaid over the deeply rooted racism, misogyny, and bigotry that sits in the hearts and minds of many Americans. These deeply rooted issues may not have been addressed as aggressively as they need to be if we continued to ignore the actual thoughts of the American people. So, it’s really a tragedy that these problems needed to be addressed in this way, but I am optimistic because this has empowered young people to take action, to see this country for what it really is, and realize how much love we have for our peers.
- The feelings you’re feeling are valid, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
- This is a big shit-storm that sucks right now, and I don’t promise it won’t get worse, but it will pass and it will be wonderful.
- Listen to your peers, they are hurting in one way or another too, no matter who they voted for in this election.
- You are strong and I am strong too, but we are stronger together.
- It’s okay if you need to distance yourself from the conversation for a little bit, take a break from social media, and take some time for self-care.
I love you, I believe in you, I believe in us, and I believe we will heal.