Meditation On My Meal IV

Okay, I think we should take a moment to take a big deep breathe.

Now that we’ve taken a breathe, my life is taking me on quite the journey right now. My house may have mold, or something in my house is definitely perpetuating my health issues. I need to decide where I’m going to move now that I’ve decided I’m going to take a semester off from school. I’m currently feeling the deep repercussions of not taking care of my burnout and am currently learning how to ask for help when I can longer “push harder”. I’m feeling a life-calling coming on in the form of educating others around the effects of living in a world of toxins and in a society that refuses to acknowledge systemic issues. So, yeah…meditate on that, folks.

I have been drinking a smoothie that has been fueling me in this time of serious adrenal fatigue, hormonal imbalance, digestive distress, and just a general state of being inflamed. It contains collagen powder, matcha powder, moringa powder, frozen pineapple, chunk of ginger, grapefruit juice, and a touch of almond milk. It’s packed with micronutrients like vitamin C, magnesium, potassium, vitamin A, and many other antioxidants. It’s so anti-inflammatory that I’ve felt a physical difference from drinking this smoothie throughout my week. Sometimes I’ll change up this smoothie by adding a chunk of turmeric or using blueberries instead of pineapple. As you see below, I’ll drink a smoothie in rain or shine (or snow!). Obviously, the focus is not on my smoothie, but that I’m drinking a smoothie when there is snow outside. I’m sure y’all have seen enough spotless pictures of green smoothies, but how about a blurry picture and SNOW!

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[collagen powder, matcha powder, moringa powder, frozen pineapple, chunk of ginger, grapefruit juice, and a touch of almond milk]

“Don’t look for any other state than the one you are in now; otherwise , you will set up inner conflict and unconscious resistance. Forgive yourself for not being at peace. The moment you completely accept your non-peace, your non-peace becomes transmuted into peace.” The Power of Now, Eckhart Tolle

Meditation On My Meals III

Wow, college is kind of the worst sometimes even when it’s not that bad! Did that make sense? No? Okay, well maybe someone resonated with that. On a more positive note I’m grateful that I have people in my life who make it not so bad. I’m grateful I get to go to college and I’m grateful that I got myself out of bed to go to class today. I just watched 13 Reasons Why, the Netflix Original show, the other day and it hit me like a wall of bricks. Yeah, I read the book when I was actually 13 years old (lol at that coincidence), but it’s one thing to read that story in book form and another to watch it. It made me think about depression, bullying, and their connection to suicide. What really made me think about was the presence of bullying in college, and especially how socially acceptable it is! Maybe I’ve had some bad experiences when I went to CU Boulder, but there were quite a few experiences that truly felt like bullying. The campus was so actively exclusive, I don’t even think I met a community that was genuinely inclusive. Through talking with some of my close peers recently, they agreed that they’ve experienced a lot of exclusivity with many of the communities on campus and in Boulder. Bullying doesn’t go away as you get older, bullies just aren’t called bullies anymore. I only came upon this realization after watching 13 Reasons Why because for the most part I didn’t experience that much bullying growing up. Sure, I had my experiences with other kids being mean to me or girls being cliquey in high school, but I never experienced active on-going bullying, at least until I came to college. Many bullies don’t realize they are being bullies and I, at the time, didn’t realize that I was being a perpetuator of bullying that was going on too! One of my best friends Andrea said to me yesterday something along the lines of “How I feel about bullying is a lot like how I feel about social justice issues, if you’re not actively being inclusive in your community, then you’re perpetuating exclusive behaviors”. When I heard her casually say this to me, I was like “Wow, you’re so so right and on point with that!” and I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it since. These were just some thoughts I’ve been processing lately. How are you actively being inclusive in your community?

Anyways, you probably came here to see some food. Well, if you remember from my first Meditation On My Meals post I talked about how not ever one of these posts is going to be pretty. This post probably isn’t going to be the prettiest of posts, but there’s a lovely selfie of me in it, so it still twinkles of beauty (hey, hey, I’m allowed to call myself beautiful if I want to!).

“If you want a always-picture-ready blogger, you’re in the wrong place, my friend.”

Oh my goodness, who is that?! That’s me y’all, in my truest form, with a smoothie in a blender bottle, hair in a bun, and in my boyfriends sweatshirt. You wanted an honest and authentic picture of a college student who’s healing, and here I hand you a mirror selfie. My makeup foundation no longer matches my current skin tone because I’ve been sitting inside for too many hours at a time studying, but I wear it anyways. If you want a always-picture-ready blogger, you’re in the wrong place, my friend.

[frozen blueberries, 1 scoop chocolate Vega Protein Smoothie powder, 1 scoop collagen powder, 1/2 tbsp matcha powder, almond milk]
Not every smoothie is going to be pretty and Instagram-ready, but it can still be yummy nonetheless.

Love is an action, never simply a feeling.” Bell Hooks

A Little Taste of What I’m About


I’ve never been good at hellos, so I’m just going to start with a little taste of what I’m about (pun completely intended). As I drink some ginger kombucha, sitting on the free wifi at my school’s library, barefoot despite the weird looks from the few students left after summer finals and very conscious of the extremely cute, septum-pierced barista working at the cafe behind me, I’ll elaborate on the lovely picture on the left that was taken many moons ago (aka last summer). Once upon a time, I had a smoothie bowl addiction. If you don’t know what a smoothie bowl is, it’s essentially a thicker smoothie, put in a bowl, so that you can eat it with a spoon, and a favorite of fit, Australian, yogi Instagrammers.

*pause to take a bite of my pad thai that I’m very aware is not paleo*

You can get pretty creative with smoothie bowls. Usually you start with a base of frozen bananas and/or açaí and add any fruit, nut butter, or spice your foodie soul desires. Then you get to the fun aesthetic part of making smoothie bowls, a very important step in becoming a true smoothie bowl zealot, where you layer the top of your smoothie bowl with toppings such as sliced fruit, seeds, more nut butter, and/or funky superfoods like the infamous goji berries. If you want to go the extra mile, you can get creative with your choice of bowl like I did above. It helps to have a sturdy blender and some type of technology to take a picture of your perfectly sculpted smoothie bowl because if you don’t take a picture of your smoothie bowl you aren’t living the full smoothie bowl experience. If you don’t take a picture and post it on your preferred choice of social media, you might as well have not even made a smoothie bowl at all.

The Simple Recipe for Smoothie Bowl posted above:

  • couple frozen, peeled bananas
  • a generous scoop of cashew butter (or any nut butter of your choosing)
  • a touch of almond milk (or milk of your choosing), (optional)
  • sunflower seeds for topping (optional)
  • half a papaya, seeds scooped out, for delicious decorative bowl (optional)

Blend frozen bananas with cashew butter in a blender (I use a Vitamix). Make sure to pause blending every once and a while to scrape down sides. If the consistency of banana cashew sludge is too thick and not blending completely, add a touch of almond milk to give your blender a helping hand. Stop blending when your smoothie has come to a smooth, thick consistency, making sure no banana chunks are present. Cut a papaya in half and scoop out the seeds to create a bowl shaped area for your smoothie. Top with sunflower seeds and don’t forget to take a picture! Once you’ve completed everything listed above, feel free to dig in and not share with anyone in your close vicinity.

I hope you enjoyed my first post! Like I said, it’s just a taste of what this blog is all about. Stay tuned every week, or whenever I decide to post, for adventures such as life as a college student, making my own yogurt, my social and environmental justice work, fermenting random veggies, picking a CSA, or maybe some guest appearances from some special homies of mine.

Have a fabulous, funky day!

Peace and love,